Thinking about killing myself why not!?

Im on a tv show where I skateboard without pads and climb trees and I have gotten over 300 letters from people that have died because of ME! I have no friends, parents suck and have no relationship, im 22, life has sucked since i can remember anyway, and the though of having someone elses life on your conciousness is to freaking much, try 300!!!I should do them a favor you know?Im not worthy of life anyway,lots of people dont like me because of this show, and no one person should even be allowed to live if 300 people have died because of them. fk it